By nature, I'm optimist. I have always been this way. I have been struggling, fellow dreamers. I feel like Luke fighting Vader in The Empire Strikes Back: battered and beaten.
The most recent events in my life are threatening to erode my spirit. I have tried my best to keep afloat. It has been challenging. Today, I had a heart to heart talk with Neo. He always brings me back to my center. What stuck out most is this: I have to embrace all these feelings to heal and endure this difficult time right now.
If you come to Swanofdreamers and think wow, Shell appears happy and positive all the time. Just know there are days when I have to work extra hard to stay positive. Trying to maintain my hope with the Dark Side creeping in is challenging. If your reading this and your struggling too in whatever form, know you are not alone. I'm right with you.
So if your weary, had it up to here, can't take it anymore, about to give up, all I can say is this. Embrace all these feelings even the most painful ones. Then find a way to endure whatever difficulty your having. Follow your fascinations or talk to a trusted friend. Get up for a morning walks or evening runs. Whatever you can do to keep sane and keep going. Do it! One day, I promise you the sun will rise and you'll wake up feeling free. I don't know when the day will come. It will.
If life is good for you right now. Know that I'm happy for you. Revel in what delights you and share all your juicy goodness with others.
As always, Sweet Dreams to you all.