I keep hearing my friend Sean in my ear go "Michie, you need to get your butt in gear. I may be dead. But your not." He always called me Michie. His voice is just as bossy as ever. So I know the best way to honor my Sean is for me to live.
I have to be honest this is so hard. I've lost family members close to me. Their deaths hurt me. This is different. I've never lost really any of my closest friends. Someone who I dreamed with and made plans to do all these adventures. Now, I am left to carry on, alone.
I have been in a creative frenzy. Yes, I said frenzy. I am an emotional eater. I have been feeling the urge to eat mass quantities of cupcakes, pizza, chips. (You can insert in any of your favorite foods here.) Seriously, that won't help my grief. It will cause more problems. Instead of eating, I turned to being creative.I have been sewing, scanning, writing, collaging. Pouring myself creatively into anything that soothes me. Creativity can save your life.
So you want to see what I have been doing?
I made this pillow on my birthday. I hand stitched it and in the back used buttons to close it.
This pillow I made yesterday using the little sewing machine my friend, Anakin gave me.
This my very first Jeans bag I made on Monday. I stayed up late trying to do this. Not bad for a first effort. I want to get a bedazzler so I can put all kinds of glittery things on it. I wore it out today and felt very cool.
This is the cover of what I'm calling my dreambook. It has my list of goals I want to accomplish in 2009. I originally had my list in a plain bigger notebook, I said I need to make it pretty. I took this smaller notebook and went collage mad. Put my goals in here.
This is the inside of the cover of my Dreambook.
Now, I didn't make this! This is my tuxedo cat, Mabel. She is so not into me taking pictures of her. I tell her I want everyone to see what a beautiful cat I have. As you can see, Mabel is not amused.
Swanofdreamers was quiet for a while, I have to continue on. This place is my haven. Being here and sharing my adventures with all of you will help me to heal. I'll be back tomorrow.
Sweet dreams to you all.